Monday, December 15, 2008

The girls and Santa

I forgot to post pics of the girls on Santa's lap the other night. Someone got smart and held a mic up to the kids so we could all hear what they asked for and Santa's reply. (That way, if they made an unwanted promise of a puppy, like a friend of mine had to deal with) the parents could quickly intervene. Or giggle at the 'You'll shoot your eye out Kid" at the 8 yr olds request of a bibi gun.

Cold and wet

It has been raining all night. A very cold rain. I have a few kids who are a bit shy in the jacket dept. Hunter's disappeared at school, and reappeared on a little girl. Hunter asked for it back and was told her mom bought it for her, but she can't remember which store or when. Luckily, it came from my mom through my brother, and she is notorious for putting names in tags. So unless her name is also Arik A, or she cut out the tag, it should be easy to reclaim. In the meantime, he wore a ratty one today.

Wednesday they are calling for highs in the 30's and possible rain/snow. Isn't frozen rain hail?? I am so snow illiterate I have no idea.

One of the pitfalls of so many kids is you never know who actually broke the mug in the sink. Instead of just cleaning it up, my kids are guilty of walking away if no one saw them. Or heard it in this case. I'd still like to know how the spaghetti sauce got on the ceiling, who threw fish gravel all over the garage, and who keeps dropping full rolls of toilet paper into the toilet. You'd think the novelty of watching it swell to three times its original size would wear off eventually. Oh, and whoever has my other croc, please give it back.

Brittany made it to Colorado. I hope she finds what she is desperately looking for. We googled her address (stalker parent alert) and she lives in a nice complex. I hope whoever is supporting them this month is nice. I hope she looks up hte church.

The Christmas party on Saturday was a lot of fun for us. It was a full house. The decorations were awesome. It was an appetizer/dessert affair, which was a nice change of pace. I took a vote at home and the hooligans all wanted Gramma's pimento and cheese dip. That cheesy (pardon the pun) 70's recipe that we all laughed at while she was alive is now Bill and the kids favorite holiday treat. I think it is more a way to include Gramma, six years after she has passed, in our holiday fun. She loved Christmas, and always kept her camera handy to capture faces of wonder, and excitement,and the occasional pout and tantrum. LOL. I wonder what became of all those pictures. I shouldbe the good wife and call his sisters. hmmm. I'll sleep on it.

Speaking of sleep, I have been awake since midnight. I know noon will roll around, and I am not going to be up to a curious two yr old, a never-ending-line-of-questions four year old and an 11 month old that just wants to crawl around and chew on anything she can find, except her toys. Oh, and they are all sick, so I can expect some whininess. Yippee. LOL.

Oh, in other life altering news, Bill passed his contractors exam on the first try. Had we known ahead of time how rare that is, I might not have been so confident. LOL. Hey, his BIL and previous boss did too, and I always thought he was a nickel short of a dollar. I hope my favorite SIL doesn't read this. ROFL. Anyway, I had the utmost faith and confidence in Bill, and he did it. We celebrated by going to lunch at Taco Bell. Last of the big time spenders.

Now, Bill is legal to work. BUT, we need 150 to pay for the license,and a 250 bond. Um, where are we going to get 400 this time of year?? So, we need money so Bill can go to work and make money. Make sense?? I didn't think so either. One of the guys in the ward does contractor insurances and Bill is planning on going thru him. He wants to know about Bill's work vehicle. LOL. Well, it is black and holds all the kids, and we drive it everywhere. A work truck is on our list of necessities, but certainly not at the top. He also ran some figures and said judging by what Bill told him about his business plan, and his contacts at the hospital and county, andthe need for a crew of about four guys (plus me as bookkeeper. Isn't that a hoot?? I need to get Bookkeeping for Dummies) he can expect the company to make around 400 a year with 100-150 as profit. I about fell out of my chair. What??!! Bill agrees with him. They both act like numbers like these are totally within reason. I can dream, I guess. I can't imagine getting off unemployment, food stamps, state insurance, and flying on our own. OMStars, the thought makes me giddy. Bill has been out of work a year now. How we made it still baffles me...

But first, what child can I sell to raise the 400 dollars???

Sunday, November 30, 2008


Thanksgiving is over. All that is left are a few pieces of turkey, some gravy, and a slice of pie. We had a great holiday, and the days spent together relaxing were really nice.

My parents came for dinner on Thursday, and at the last minute we got Grandma too. It is Aunt Sharon's year (hmmm, I could swear she had it last year, too) but up at Aunt Sharon's house, Grandma twisted her knee. She had to come back into town to be checked on Wednesday, and Mom didn't want to make the trek back up the mountain to Anza with her. Plus, we weren't sure she wouldn't need surgery. It was great she could be here. But now, to make up for it, Aunt Sharon is taking Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. "It is only fair Linda, since you got TG" Some spirit of giving.

Cory spent the holiday with us. He is not allowed to spend Sundays with us because he innocently let slip that we want to take him to church with us. The group home he is in is run by a born again Christian operation, and I swear they are trying to save his soul. Last Christmas, his PO gave him permission to go to the ward Christmas party with us, and at the last minute the house manager rescinded it because his room was not clean enough. This is a once a year party, that he and us really look forward to. But, once it is gone,it is gone. The PO was livid, insisted on a report on why his recommendations were not followed, and generally raised a ruckus over it. I told him my theory and he blanched when he found out our religion. The county offices are very good at separating church and state. They wouldn't care if we were in a cult praising Cabbage patch dolls, as long as we were active, supportive parents. They don't see enough of those. But, they do know the house is owned and operated by a church. Supposedly the kids are allowed to follow their own religion while in the house, but every time we give Cory a Book of Mormon to read, it disappears. Oddly, his bible is still there. I can hope it is someone with a keen desire to learn more about our church, but since we have given Cory about 5 of them, I am thinking someone is intervening. they also won't let us pick him up on Sunday mornings and take him to church. They are 'too busy'. So, Cory politely goes to their church, listens to bible study(they were impressed with his bible knowledge) and waits to go to church with us again.

Meanwhile, back to TG, he and the boys went from the XBox in the bedroom, to the Wii in the living room. They were quiet all weekend LOL.

Bill has been under a lot of stress. He has put a lot of money toward his license, and is worried he won't pass the test. He paid three hundred dollars for a contractors school that guaranteed his passing his license test. His test is set for Friday, the 5th. He was supposed to go to the school all day yesterday and today. He gets down there yesterday, and the receptionist says class was cancelled and moved to Redlands. She said she called everyone with the information, and left messages on the phones she couldn't reach. Bill told her both numbers he had given had no such messages. He even called me to check my messages. So she calls the owner of the school, who apologizes, and says he will have an instructor at the location to spend one on one with Bill so he passes the test. What kind of crappy organization is this?? Keep Bill in your prayers. He is rather an extremist, and knows if he fails the test, we will be living in the Expedition. It isn't that bad, but he swears that is what will happen.

Brittany is not moving back anymore. Ty's dad lost his job and told them they needed to figure something else out. They can't stay in Flagstaff, as he makes 7 dollars an hour washing dishes, and B makes four as a waitress, two days a week. She works Tuesday and Thursday nights, and averages 10 dollars in tips a night. There is not way they can support themselves on this type of income. I am thinking Ty is hoping his music career takes off. But in the meantime, he is 23 and needs a decent job. Ty's mom and boyfriend are moving to Northern CA, and they basically were not invited to come. Bill and I knew the day would come when she would tire of supporting B. Keeping the house straightened, and making dinner occasionally does not pay the way of a healthy adult. So we bit the bullet and offered them a place here. Ty could bunk with the boys, nad she could share a room with Kailey. They declined and instead are going to Colorado to live with Ty's cousin. It is all good, as I found out some upsetting stuff soon after, and I need time to get over it, and basically forgive her. Plus, at this point, we think she needs hit bottom to realize what a mess she is in. They are living on one meal a day right now. They also can't afford the propane to heat the house, so they are hungry and cold. Gratefully, they are not expecting. At least I don't think so, as I haven't seen her since August. All I can do is pray for her, and hope she comes to her senses before it is too late.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Old age creepeth

Yeah, I am feeling it. I turned 43 on Friday. Where did the time go?? I made myself a sour cream devil's food cake, with splenda rather than sugar, and it wasn't so hot. It was flat and dry. Kind of a waste of ingredients and time. The frosting was fantastic though. LOL I admit, I took a whole piece, just to pick off the frosting.

Brittany called last night to say they aren't coming down for thanksgiving after all. Before I could get too upset she said it is because they are saving their money for a uhaul to move back here. I was so excited. I told her this had been really hard on me, even though I swore to myself I would not use guilt on her. We had promised 100.00 for gas for the TG trip, so we are hoping to come up with little more to help with the rental. I am just glad she is moving back home.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Halloween fun

We had a good time over at the ward's trunk or treat. I made a crock o' chili, and my family proclaimed it delicious. I never got it over to be judged, but oh well. We then migrated to the parking lot for the best fun of the year, according to Tyler. How nice it is to be able to sit in a chair at the car and greet all the cute kids in their costumes, and not worry about the kids safety. It was two wards combined, but I still felt totally safe letting Cameryn and Tyler go off on their own, to circle as many times as the candy held out.
The pic is Baby L in the best costume, letting us know how she feels. She came to the party last night as Tinkerbell, but i liked the cow and Harry Potter glasses better. LOL. I am sending this one to her mom. The kids all carved a pumpkin, but I didn't get any decent individual shots. The one on the bottom right is Kailey's, and she just slashed a face in it. Delilah had to check out all the pumpkins when we set it up, just in case we were in danger. She gets to Kailey's, and backed up and gave it a wide berth. Dumb dog.
Time to think about Thanksgiving already. I invited my parents (who told me Dad just wanted to sit in his chair that day) and my sister and her kids. I haven't heard back from her. It is looking like it will just be us.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

can't dispute the obvious

It must be time for Aunt Flo to come, as I am overemotional, and just plain tired. I will probably delete this pity party later but I am hoping I feel better after writing it out. Feel free to exit out and find something less maudlin.

I was born with an obnoxious sense of humor and what I perceive (by the looks and actions of others) an annoying personality. I remember teachers at school and at church acting very long suffering when dealing with me. There were a lot of sighs and eye rolls by adults. I honestly didn't know what I was doing wrong, as I was polite, and well behaved, I just was very dorky.

I had a lot of acquaintances in high school who thought I was very entertaining, but a lot of my closer friends seemed to tire of me quickly, and move on to other people. One who absolutely made it clear I was an annoyance was the bishop's daughter. At the time I felt she was very self righteous, and I was the recipient of many of her dismissive sniffs. Being the only two our age in the ward, we had no choice but to spend a lot of time together, and some of those activities were torture for me. She felt it was her duty (since she was so much better than me) to keep me in line.As we neared college age, we kind of came to a truce, as we had both matured.

Time went on, and I got married and started having kids, and making friends with adults. I still saw the annoyed looks, and the 'shoot! there's Pam" deer-in-the-headlights flash across their face, before being replaced by a tolerant smile and a polite greeting. Don't get me wrong, I have some true friends who never act like that. But, all this made it very hard for me to trust people with my feelings. I am tired of finding a friend, start to trust, and then see the look. I immediately back way off. Now, Bill is baffled when I tell him all this because he doesn't see it, but he does see how I am treated and it hurts him. Isn't he a great guy?? I trust him one hundred percent and I never temper myself with him. He knows me in all my obnoxious glory.

So, I have been having dreams of the Bishop's daughter and the last time we saw each other. Why it is bothering me now, I have no idea. Seven years ago, one of the guys from our seminary class passed away. He had moved from Orange County to Riverside like I had, and his funeral was held in my stake center. I went with my current Bishop and his wife. He had been Danny's scoutmaster, so we carpooled. I noticed one of the girls from my YW's sitting a few rows ahead of me and I made a note to say hi when it was over. As I walked up to her(this girl had never given me the look) she glanced up and I read a ton of emotions in her eyes, the biggest saying Oh, no. I was so surprised as we had had a lot of fun together growing up.Instead of turning around, and saving face, I said Hi. She answered with her usual cheer, but kept herself busy buckling her baby in his chair. I tried to salvage my pride by asking friendly questions like how she was, where were her and her husband living, and how cute her baby was. While we were talking, and i was planning my polite escape, the Bishop's daughter walked up. I hadn't seen her since her dad's funeral almost two years before, and thinking we were still adults, turned with a smile to acknowledge her. She turned slightly, giving all her attention to Patty, and me her back. She mentioned needing to leave quickly as her mom had the kids, but she wanted to say hi to her before she left. They hugged and then C turned and left. No hi, no eye contact, not even an 'excuse me' for interrupting us. Patty gave me an embarrassed look, and I said to heck with my pride. I quickly said goodbye, and walked away before the humiliation reached my overactive tear ducts. I found Sandy and Dave and we left.

I have tried to justify her behavior, but i can't. Was I so horrible that you can't even manage a polite hello and how are you?? I buried all this hurt and embarrassment, and wrote her out of my life. I was barely pregnant with Tyler after two years of heartache and a few ectopic pregnancies, and I concetrated on being healthy and happy for her sake.

Last year the dreams started. Why?? I keep seeing myself standing there like a ninny, and I look like I am desperate for someone to like me. I wake up with the humiliation fresh in my mind. I have been tempted to write the bishop's daughter a letter and tell her how hurt i was, and how totally innapropriate her behavior was. Then what?? Do I want an apology?? No, honestly if I never saw her again I would be happy. Who wants to subject themselves to that pain?? At this moment, I don't know what to do. But this is the frame of mind I am in with the other things that happened this week to leave me a crying mess, and wondering why I have to try so hard just to keep others from hating, or avoiding me.

I quit my job in July, and my only regret was leaving the shoemart manager behind. We had become great friends, and ate lunch together every day. We have been going to lunch two or three fridays a month, and last saturday, we set up for yesterday. I called the store, acted like a customer so they would puther on the phone, and then waited. I wanted to make surethe time and place was still good for her. She never came to the phone, so I called her cell phone. She pays by the minute, which is why I just call the store. She answered, in a rush, and said she didn't go to work, and can she call me right back on another phone?? That was yesterday at 11:00 am. I should stop waiting for the phone to ring. Bill went to TacoBell and got me a Nachos Bell grande anyway because he knew I was really looking forward to it. I was more looking forward to time with Melissa.

Add to that, I texted another friend this morning. I realized I couldn't go with the youth to the temple, and I sent her a text letting her know. They weren't relying on me to transport or anything and I didn't want them waiting for me. Normally I just call this girl, but in my sorry state I felt safer texting. I received a text back immediately asking 'Who is this??" I sent a LOL and it's Pam. Nothing. Nothing says leave me alone like not even acknowledging it. I know she is busy, and will probably have a valid excuse for not responding, but with everything else going on, I took it personally. I was already on the fence with her as she kinda ignores me at church unless we are up in YW. I get the feeling I embarrass her or something. I guess I will back way up with her and Melissa. I am running out of friends.

Friday, October 3, 2008

The dialation

Tyler had an eye appt today. Her eyes are getting worse, and it is time to patch the good eye. Her bad eye is so bad that when the dr asked her to identify the letter, she had no idea. Once he made it giant sized, she got it.... or at least close. My poor baby. The dr is worried that if they are this bad at six, what will they be like in 10 years??

They dialated her eyes, and she was immediately super sensitive to the light. I felt so bad for her. She gladly wore the paper sunglasses because they made her feel better. I thought she looked cute. I am biased though, and thinks she always looks cute.
You'll notice she has them adjusted so small that the ends poke up through her bangs.

20 years??

Really?? It doesn't feel that long. It seems just last week when Bill and I made our vows. I was 22, and ready, and Bill was 25 with a ponytail down his back. I braided it nice for the wedding. LOL. He has a lot less hair now, but he would rather we not discuss that.

Seven kids, many moves, cars, possessions, and financial hurdles later, we are still going strong. He is my best friend. How lucky I am I found him. He was raised differently, with no religious influence except his mom telling him he was Catholic. He had no idea what that was or what it meant. He smoked, drank, and dabbled in illegal substances (I, being the good Mormon girl I was had NO idea) He started coming to church when three yr old Brittany laid it on thick and told him all her friends' daddies came to church. By the time we had three kids, he was baptized, and we took four (with one in the oven) to the temple.

So, in celebration, we are headed to the Olive Garden today for lunch. A late lunch, two days late. The 1st was the actual day, but I had the three little girls til 7pm, and P til 9. So, no daycare today, but Tyler has an eye appointment. So, instead of a romantic lunch while kids are in school, we will have a late lunch after Kailey gets home. Ya make do.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Update on the move, and other nonsense

This is probably the last time they will CHOOSE to dress alike. LOL Notice the tights and flats even are the same.

So much has happened since posting about moving. I was in a pit of despair, with no possible alternative. As grateful as I am for my SIL offering, we have postponed making a definite decision until after the holidays. IF we decide to move, it will be next summer.

In the meantime, Bill has been doing side jobs, and my daycare hours are picking up. We are still trying to come up with a way to get his contractors license. I am going full time with the three little girls the end of the month. As much as I am looking forward to it, I am dreading trying to find ways to occupy them while the kids are at school. Especially the very smart and busy four year old.

Last night was back to school night at the elementary school. Tyler was first, as it has always been our custom to go youngest to oldest. I am down to two in the elementary school. Whoo hoo. Anyway, we got to ooh and ahh over her desk, her family portrait (which was quite amusing) and other things of importance to her. On the wall was a chart with the kids in the class represented by apples. The top was labeled something AB(I really didn't look to closely at the first one), below AB, AB, and CD. The first column had most of the class, with about four in the below AB column, two in the AB and two in the CD. Tyler was in the CD. I asked the teacher the meaning of the chart and she said it was reading levels. AB is the standard level of the beginning of first grade. At the end of the first trimester, all the kids need to be at the CD level in order to be on grade level.I thought it must be kinda depressing for the teacher to have so few where they need to be but I was thrilled that Tyler is above grade level. Now if I could just get her to do her homework.
Cameryn is doing well, but she got the toughest teacher this year. The boys had her two years ago and I kinda groaned inside when Cami got her. The track system has been dissolved, so she had the chance of one of six or seven 4th grade teachers, and she still got this one. Oh well, she will do better than the boys did.
My washer pooped out on me. I bought it in March and was so thrilled that I actually had a matching set. Well, the pump was loaded with fish gravel, thanks to the kids throwingit in the garage, and this blew the motor. Going online told us that getting parts for this model was fruitless, as Whirlpool only made it for a year or two, and it was a piece of crap. They redesigned it, and released it again as another model. I called the junk guy and he came this morning for it. Luckily, I had saved my other one, and we popped it into place, adn I was back in business.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

A new start??

Financially, we are sinking hard. Bill hasn't worked since May. I am tired of asking for help. An option opened up this last week, and it looks like we are taking it, if a few things fall into place.

Bill's sister lives in Washington, in a small town off the Olympic Peninsula. She has offered us a place a few times, but Bill has always had a good job and we just didn't feelthe motivation to leave. Now we do. The Pros:

1. a really low crime rate and safe schools. I can't imagine not have racial/gang riots and the ensuing lock downs. Or the cops doing practice drills at the high school.

2. A fresh start is always an adventure, right??

3. The unemployment rate on the island is much less than here, and if you are willing to cross the bridge into town, it drops significantly.

4. The cost of living is less. Rent is cheaper, utilities are about the same. We'd use a lot more gas in the winter trying to keep the house warm, but it will balance out with the unnecessary cooling bills in the summer.

The cons:

1. Leaving my parents and Grandma. Grandma is 91. Really, how much time is left with her?? I will really miss her and fight with guilt. Heck, I already am.

2. I have been the Queen of the Hive for a long time. Nuff said.

3. Leaving Cory and Brittany. Brittany has already moved to Flagstaff, and I hope it really works out for them. If things don't work out for them, she will always have a home with us. Cory has finished with his program, and set to go into jobcorps, if he ever hears from them. I am thinking we will be sending him a bus ticket to join us later.

4. the Queen of the Hive thing.

5. Delilah and Jack. Jack is nine years old. He spends half his time at the ladies' house next door, so I may offer them food for a while, and see if they will keep him. I would like to take him, but I am terrified he will bolt halfway there on a potty break. Jack is also my BIL's name, and he may not be amused.I would rather adopt him out than lose him. Delilah has to go with us. She is a member of the family. So is the cat, of course, but dogs just seem to be so much more needy.

So, I finally resign myself to this, and a friend thinks he can get Bill a job making close to what he is used to making. If so, we stay, and try to get caught up. I told Bill he has 10 days to figure it all out and we make a definite decision. I hate not knowing.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Hair today....

The hardest part of this daycare job is taming this hair. LOL. M is 20 months old, and very patient with my pathetic attempts to make her presentable. I usually put it off until I absolutely have when Mom will be home soon. Kailey keeps begging me to buy a pick and really make it bounce. Nothing like a do that has a life of it's own.

Tyler lost her first tooth

While I was at girls camp no less. I think she looks adorable.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Chandler passed

Due to being gone for girls camp, I didn't have a chance to get Chandler in for another interview with the Bishop. So, he had it this morning, and passed with flying colors. Next week he will be ordained, and the following week will b e his first time passing. As tradition, Bill will pass with him, so it will be Bill, Chan and Hunter passing together.

I amglad we cancelled as Mom totally forgot, and had other commitments. I will call her a couple times this week and remind her to be here. Brittany planned on coming today anyway, and have Chan's birthday dinner with us, but then Ty got sick. Okay. No surprise there. Chandler was a little hurt.I just hope they can make it next week.

Chan's birthday dinner was tamale pie and pasta salad. I had sauted zucchini from Cindy's garden, and a touch of pie. After my terrible eating last week, I need to work on eating better. Not that I had any control over what I ate. But I do now, and I plan on fixing it.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Girls Camp

I am so tired, but wow did I have fun. We left Tuesday and came back today at lunch time. In between was tons of fun intermingled with teen drama and mediocre food.

A few highlights:

My camp name is Sister Sappy. Nice, huh?? Not because I am too emotional, but because I stupidly leaned against a tree and got a ton of pine sap in my hair. It was a knotted, matted mess, and I was terrified to go to bed and make it worse, so we were actually on the hunt for scissors when my co cabin mom, Sue, came up with the solution. Bless her. Did you know orange pumice soap for mechanics greasy hands works great??

15 girls is way too many?? It took forever to count, and then do mental attendance to figure out who was missing. By thursday, I had a list in my pocket that I would pull out and check off. I knew I was in trouble when it took a while for me to figure out one day that i was missing my own daughter.

I grew up in the same ward (different times) as one of the other cabin moms. Come to find out, she grew up with a lot of people who were there. It became a huge joke and her camp name became Sister Six Degrees. The Six Degrees of Noryne M. It was hysterical. We want to get her a shirt that says "I grew up with her" and then have arrows pointing all over.

I took a box of Triscuits in case I was hungry and the meals weren't diabetic friendly. Glad I did. Anyway, on the back was a picture of a wine glass and the caption of how romantic Triscuits could be. Triscuit became our code word for missing our husbands. The leader's precocious 16 yr old daughter was in on the conversation, and I told her she could not have a Triscuit yet. But when she could, I would get her a box. LOL. She requested a Costco sized box. I had to admit that she won that round, but she ended up with the nickname of Triscuit. I am thinking the Bishop might not approve. Her mom, being the YW President, thought the whole thing funny.

Testimony meeting is always a beautiful experience for the girls. I love watching them get up and profess their love for each other and the Savior. Three out of our fifteen girls got up and bore their testimonies. One of them was Kailey. I was so touched to see her stand there in front of all those girls and say how happy she is to have the gospel in her life, and how much she loves the YW program. She also declared her love for the Lord while trying not to cry. I was in tears in the back with how beautiful she is and how proud of her I am. I tried reallly hard this week not to be her mom, just let her go and be with her friends. I let her come to me when she needed me. When it was over, we hugged. These moments are few and far between. I relish them.

Monday, August 11, 2008

Online school is out....for now

I backed out of AIU. I researched it (thanks for the link, Melissa) and scholarships and grants are not part of their vocabulary. Plus a lot of places don't recognize an online degree. So, 20,000 for each year, and then run the risk of it being no good. Nevermind. I'll figure something out.

The counselor called me everyday, and a lot of times put me on hold so I could talk to a financial aid advisor. When I looked at my cell phone bill, I was baffled by an extra hundred bucks we owe. (Like we have money). I went over my minutes with this counselor!! Hey, Pal!! You gonna help me pay this bill?? Didn't think so. Lose my number!!

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Why is it??

I was an idiot at church today. I know, I know......what's new?? You'd think at 42 I could refrain from saying stupid things.I was talking to the mom of the kids I do daycare for, and I told her as soon as I went pee, I would take the baby for her. She has three girls: 4, 20 months, and seven months. Then I said "I'll wash my hands" What was that??!! Was I trying to reassure her with my bathroom habits and cleanliness?? It made it sound like I only wash for special occasions..and ma'am, your baby warrants it!! Now every time I take the baby from her, she'll wonder when I washed last. Sheesh.
Chandler had his interview to become a Deacon. He will be 12 on Wednesday, and so I planned his ordination for next Sunday. I invited family over to go to church, we'll have a BBQ, the works. Then the bishop called me in and said Chan wasn't ready. What?? He asked Chan what the priesthood was and Chan just shrugged. Part of this was me. I should have had a refresher course with him. But you would think all those FHE's and going to church each week of his life, the answers would be there. So I will make another interview and try to keep the plans the same. I asked Chan when the priesthood was restored, and with a little nudging, he recited The First Vision, and the story of Joseph Smith, and the restoration of the church. He then was on a roll and told me how the priesthood is the authority to act in God's name. I asked him why he didn't tell the bishop all this and he said the bishop asked about the oath and the covenant. I guess it threw him off. CHandler does understand how important this is, and I was a little upset he failed like that.
THen Bill tells me that in Priesthood today, the bishop made reference to the boys on high adventure not taking their priesthood seriously. Or as much as he wanted them to. I am thinking all the boys frustrated him, and then Chan shrugged in his interview. I am a little angry.
I will go over the oath and covenant with him, and encourage him to be more forthcoming with his anwers. Hopefullly Bill can get him inthis week while I am up at camp.

Monday, August 4, 2008

Looking forward to peace and quiet...

Hunter left at 5:00 am for Scout Camp this morning. Of course, we were supposed to be there at 5, but the leader didn't show until quarter til six. Glad I was 'prepared' and had my chair in the car. After they left, I came home and got Chandler out the door for a week in Catalina with his friend Jacob. Jacob's dad takes him every year, and this year they asked for
Chan's company.

A week with only three kids?? What will I do with myself?? First off, a big whoo hoo!!! Okay, now what??

Next week is girls camp, and we have a planning meeting today. Kailey is so excited. She loves girls camp, and talks about it all year. She doesn't even seem to mind that I go. I am excited about that. LOL. This year I am staying all week. Let's see how she does. We will have two cabins, so most likely she will be in the other cabin with the older girls, and I will be in with the Beehives.

No daycare for Preshus this week, as she is going to her Grandma's house. I don't understand why she doesn't go next week, while I am gone, but that is fine. I do have the three girls on Wednesday, though. But with K's help it is easy. I am not looking forward to her going to school and leaving me alone.

Off to do financial aid crap.

Saturday, August 2, 2008

New Blog

My subscription ran out on the other one, and they wanted actual money to renew it. Uhh, no. I am just too cheap for that.

Bill has left for the day with Brittany, Cory, and Chandler. They went to Cruefest. Normally, we don't let the kids go to a concert before they are 16, but we made an exception. Oh, and Britt's boyfriend Ty went too. We NEVER call him Tyler as that is the name of our favorite 6 yr old girl. Anyway, back to breaking the rules for Chandler. His 12th birthday is coming up on the 13th. This is the year he gets a party. So, the plan has been to go to a skate park with his new board (that Amazon shipped yesterday) and have a BBQ, and friends. Then, Bill bought tickets to the concert for B and C's birthdays back in May. He bought one for me, and I graciously gave mine to Kailey.(i.e. what was he thinking??!!). Meanwhile, Chan has been listening to 6am, the headlining band. And really getting into them. Listening to the CD over and over and discussing it with Bill. Bill mentioned it was too bad Chan was so young, because he would LOVE the concert.

After thinking about it for say....five minutes, I propose to Bill that he takes Chandler, and maybe I can get out of the park party. See, I told some of you I have moments of incredible lousy mommying. I am just not looking forward to a park in August with a bunch of punky boys, mine being the punkiest. But the final decision is Chan's. I am not going to take the fall for ripping the fun away, he had to CHOOSE to. I started to talk to Chan and he didn't even let me finish before he is whooping like a madman. He excitedly picked the concert. Life is easy for me as now I am home with the two little girls and Hunter.

Kailey opted not to go, as tonight is the Irvine dance and anyone who is anyone is going. She is hoping a certain teacher inthe stake will be there. She is more like me, and concerts do nothing for her. Although, I would love to one day see Billy Joel.

The girls are out in the pool with the dog and Hunter is doing his best to fill up his recent sketch book. This gives me comp time. Bill took the camera, or I'd show you fun at it's summer best.

We haven't seen Brittany for about seven weeks. She was supposed to come over for the 4th of July, but Ty was sick. So, she comes in and gives me a half hearted hug and asks for the keys to her car. Not even a glance at her sisters. Cameryn and Tyler have always been close to B, and I was a little surprised by that. I encouraged both of them to go see Brittany and give her a hug. A few minutes later, Brittany comes in and asks to see the pictures I took of the little daycare girls this week. I thought it would be fun to make a scrapbook of some of our activites and give it to their mom for Christmas as a gift from them. Cute, huh??

Well, Brittany starts gushing how cute A is. She was in Brittany's Primary class before Britt decided to assert her independence. She wants to come over one day this week to see her. Don't get me wrong, A is cute. But, hey, what about your sisters?? Your SISTERS??!! The ones who cried for weeks when you left?? The ones who waited for every phone call and visit like two inmates waiting for parole?? Your sisters who are starting to act indifferent to you because they are tired of being hurt?? Your sisters who cling more to me tobe sure I won't leave them. Why don't you make a special trip to see them??!! Don't you dare come to see A and hurt them again.

Obviously I am still not doing well with this.

On a good note, Kmart is struggling getting people to do my old job. So far, they are paying two people to do my job, and a couple have quit. The new guy wanted info, and asked buddy Melissa if I would help him. I refused because after the way they treated me, they can deal with it.